The Peanut (kind of funny considering how allergic she is to them) is down for her nap, I have just poured myself a peppermint tea and I think it is time for a little reflection.
As of yesterday, I have moved on from the detox and am now moving into the next phase. I know this is a couple of days early, but yesterday at the gym I once again became dizzy and nauseous about two thirds of the way through my training session. Frustrating because I am really back into what we are doing and I feel like my body is letting me down and I am letting down my trainer. Again my trainer asked what I had had for breakie and told her. It was her opinion that I needed either more protein or some complex carbohydrates to give me that extra fuel to get all the way through my workout. And honestly I was starving right around the time it hit, so yes, I bet I was just out of fuel.
So I decided to opt out a couple of days early from the detox so that I could make some changes to what I was eating and be ready to go for Monday at 9 a.m.! Today I had a combination of Flax Cereal and Oats, with a few raisins and some cinnamon, cloves and nutmeg for flavour. They were yummy and my system responded well to them. This was good fuel for our skating adventure this morning with Kelly and Connor. We had a great time, got some good exercise in, and came home with lots of energy.
This detox has been a real journey of exploration for me. I never thought I had issues around food, but have come to realize that that isn't necessarily the case. I love to eat there is no doubt, but I also don't like feeling deprived either. This is the biggest one. But what is deprivation? Dictionary.com lists the word deprive as to remove or withhold something from the enjoyment or possession of (a person or persons): to deprive a man of life; to deprive a baby of candy. I think it is funny that the second is the example they use. Baby's shouldn't have candy in the first place, so really, that is just good parenting. But I digress . . .
I think in the beginning I saw parts of this detox as being deprived of the things I love so much. But yet, these are the things that have really put a tax on my health, my energy, my system, my sanity. I can't say that I won't eat sugar ever again - I love cake - but I am going to try and continue to make better choices on the food front for me and my family. I have a child who really doesn't like sweets - I sometimes wish I was more like her.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Day 24
Well we are almost at the end of this Detox journey. I have to say that I am kind of glad about that. The last week has been particularly hard. Reasons - I need a little more variety in what I eat - like some red meat and being able to eat Oatmeal (the Steel Cut variety) in the morning along with my fruit. I also miss eggs which has surprised me a little.
I have to say that this has been a long and winding journey in which I think each of us Yummy Mummy's has truly learned the value that we place on food. For me, I have realized how I do love food - the taste, the smell, the family time, the conversations with great friends. Food brings us together - always has, always will. I have also realized how much I hate being limited in what I can eat. I have had to learn new inventive techniques for making, chicken and turkey exciting again, and again, and again. Thank goodness for being allowed fish because if I hadn't been able to mix things up with that, I would have caved week two.
I know I have learned healthier eating habits that will be of huge benefit to me and my family. From here on in it will be a case of making sure I incorporate this knowledge into our daily routine, instead of falling back on the old and easy ways. Now don't get me wrong, I am looking forward to bringing back some of my old favourites - bread, being one. But I will look for healthier alternatives like Ezekial bread or start making my own at home with the bread maker that has been in my basement for two years unused. Juicing will also continue to have a place in our house. I love fresh juice. My morning would not be complete without it and my Chia seeds! (Ch-ch-ch-chia - I know you are singing it too.)
Still, I have to admit that I am a little scared about what next week brings. My true fear lies in how I will deal with the first day off program - will I gorge on potato chips and steak (isn't that a picture) to the point of making myself sick or will I continue to take a step back and carefully watch what I consume - think about each thing I put on my plate, and ultimately how it will make me feel at the end of the meal.
I have been reading two really interesting books - Eating Clean Recharged by Tosca Reno and EAT THIS! NOT THAT! I know that Eating Clean will continue to be a big part of what happens going forward. I get what Tosca is trying to teach us. EAT THIS! NOT THAT! is truly eye opening for what happens in our restaurants, but beyond that, provides very interesting insight into the world of food in general. Both will be good resources in my kitchen.
When all is said and done, I know next week I will need to recommit to making myself the healthiest person I can be. That may have to happen for the next 52 weeks. If so, that is just the way it will have to be. I know I will have slip ups, I am only human after all. But instead of beating myself up, I will look at what I have done and move forward - maybe it will be another couple of weeks before I have that food again, maybe a couple of months. Either way, I am going to try to be the healthiest person I can be.
I have to say that this has been a long and winding journey in which I think each of us Yummy Mummy's has truly learned the value that we place on food. For me, I have realized how I do love food - the taste, the smell, the family time, the conversations with great friends. Food brings us together - always has, always will. I have also realized how much I hate being limited in what I can eat. I have had to learn new inventive techniques for making, chicken and turkey exciting again, and again, and again. Thank goodness for being allowed fish because if I hadn't been able to mix things up with that, I would have caved week two.
I know I have learned healthier eating habits that will be of huge benefit to me and my family. From here on in it will be a case of making sure I incorporate this knowledge into our daily routine, instead of falling back on the old and easy ways. Now don't get me wrong, I am looking forward to bringing back some of my old favourites - bread, being one. But I will look for healthier alternatives like Ezekial bread or start making my own at home with the bread maker that has been in my basement for two years unused. Juicing will also continue to have a place in our house. I love fresh juice. My morning would not be complete without it and my Chia seeds! (Ch-ch-ch-chia - I know you are singing it too.)
Still, I have to admit that I am a little scared about what next week brings. My true fear lies in how I will deal with the first day off program - will I gorge on potato chips and steak (isn't that a picture) to the point of making myself sick or will I continue to take a step back and carefully watch what I consume - think about each thing I put on my plate, and ultimately how it will make me feel at the end of the meal.
I have been reading two really interesting books - Eating Clean Recharged by Tosca Reno and EAT THIS! NOT THAT! I know that Eating Clean will continue to be a big part of what happens going forward. I get what Tosca is trying to teach us. EAT THIS! NOT THAT! is truly eye opening for what happens in our restaurants, but beyond that, provides very interesting insight into the world of food in general. Both will be good resources in my kitchen.
When all is said and done, I know next week I will need to recommit to making myself the healthiest person I can be. That may have to happen for the next 52 weeks. If so, that is just the way it will have to be. I know I will have slip ups, I am only human after all. But instead of beating myself up, I will look at what I have done and move forward - maybe it will be another couple of weeks before I have that food again, maybe a couple of months. Either way, I am going to try to be the healthiest person I can be.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Skating
The feel of the ice as you glide over it is like no other for me. I love it and miss it. So why have I said that, keep reading.
Instead of heading to the gym this morning, I decided that Sophie and I would stay home and try to get a few things done around the house. Reason - my head is still on the verge of exploding and even though the workout would have been good for the hour, the after effect was not one I was ready to deal with today. Around 9:30 a.m., as I was deciding whether to have a shower or go fold the massive amounts of laundry in my bedroom I made a spontaneous decision - Sophie and I would go skating at the Parent/Tot Skate at Carling Arena. It is something I have wanted to check out since November. Today was the day that I was going to use the new skates that I bought two years ago. I was missing my old skates this morning which are broken in so well, but we will just have to keep going in order to get my new skates broken in as well.
So, we quickly got dressed and headed out the door. I was a little hesitant, well a lot hesitant, because it has been at least 8 years since I have been on skates. There was a very good chance that the 2 year olds just learning to skate were going to show me up. Well, I didn't fall! Success #1. Luckily I was able to hold onto the stroller the entire time, otherwise it wouldn't have been pretty. Success #2 - I lasted 15 minutes longer than I thought I would. I had said to myself on the ride over, even if I am done after 5 minutes, so be it. We actually made it 20 minutes! I think I could have gone longer except that I have a little girl who does not like to wear her mittens and as a result her hands were so cold by the end of the 20 minutes that it was time to leave. Next time I am duct taping her mittens on!
I am proud to have tried something "new" today. I feel great about getting out on the ice and know that we definitely go back again really soon. I also think it is important for Sophie to get out and see other kids doing different things. And she was very interested in watching the other kids skating on their own. I have no doubt that we will be strapping on her own skates very soon.
Instead of heading to the gym this morning, I decided that Sophie and I would stay home and try to get a few things done around the house. Reason - my head is still on the verge of exploding and even though the workout would have been good for the hour, the after effect was not one I was ready to deal with today. Around 9:30 a.m., as I was deciding whether to have a shower or go fold the massive amounts of laundry in my bedroom I made a spontaneous decision - Sophie and I would go skating at the Parent/Tot Skate at Carling Arena. It is something I have wanted to check out since November. Today was the day that I was going to use the new skates that I bought two years ago. I was missing my old skates this morning which are broken in so well, but we will just have to keep going in order to get my new skates broken in as well.
So, we quickly got dressed and headed out the door. I was a little hesitant, well a lot hesitant, because it has been at least 8 years since I have been on skates. There was a very good chance that the 2 year olds just learning to skate were going to show me up. Well, I didn't fall! Success #1. Luckily I was able to hold onto the stroller the entire time, otherwise it wouldn't have been pretty. Success #2 - I lasted 15 minutes longer than I thought I would. I had said to myself on the ride over, even if I am done after 5 minutes, so be it. We actually made it 20 minutes! I think I could have gone longer except that I have a little girl who does not like to wear her mittens and as a result her hands were so cold by the end of the 20 minutes that it was time to leave. Next time I am duct taping her mittens on!
I am proud to have tried something "new" today. I feel great about getting out on the ice and know that we definitely go back again really soon. I also think it is important for Sophie to get out and see other kids doing different things. And she was very interested in watching the other kids skating on their own. I have no doubt that we will be strapping on her own skates very soon.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Headaches
I have always suffered from headaches. But today is a doosy! One of my reasons for doing the detox was to get the extra sugar out of my system which I am sure was causing some of them. Last night I decided to have an Epsom Salts bath, though I was leary because the last time I had one, I woke up with a screamer the next day too. I thought, well I really want to get the toxins out of me so let's see how it goes.
This time I made sure I drank lots of water and peppermint tea while in the tub and after. I made sure I didn't make the water as hot as last time. I sat back, relaxed and enjoyed the bath. Then I woke up this morning with a screamer again. Well actually it didn't become a screamer until about 9 a.m. but I knew what my day held for me when the "alarm" went off at 5:10 that was for sure.
Now I am sure that last night's crying episodes and wake up at 5:10 didn't help matters either. All in all, a bad combination of things. So as I sit here, and wish you all a good night, I am leaving my dishes undone from supper (my biggest peeve but I just can't do it), my basement still in an extreme state of chaos, the clean laundry in Sophie's room not put away and the laundry in my room will remain unfolded for one more day. Oh well, life will go on!
This time I made sure I drank lots of water and peppermint tea while in the tub and after. I made sure I didn't make the water as hot as last time. I sat back, relaxed and enjoyed the bath. Then I woke up this morning with a screamer again. Well actually it didn't become a screamer until about 9 a.m. but I knew what my day held for me when the "alarm" went off at 5:10 that was for sure.
Now I am sure that last night's crying episodes and wake up at 5:10 didn't help matters either. All in all, a bad combination of things. So as I sit here, and wish you all a good night, I am leaving my dishes undone from supper (my biggest peeve but I just can't do it), my basement still in an extreme state of chaos, the clean laundry in Sophie's room not put away and the laundry in my room will remain unfolded for one more day. Oh well, life will go on!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Dollies
I am sitting here watching Sophie play with her dollies. As a kid with two older brothers you would find me playing with cars, trucks and barns more so than dollies. I do remember getting my first teddy bear for my birthday when I was about five. I still have her, even though she is a little worse for wear these days.
No, I didn't play with dollies until I met my friend Denise. Then I had to have Barbies, and Cabbage Patch Kids. Well whatever Denise got, I had to have too! I think my mom hated hearing ". . . but mom, Denise has one so I HAVE to have one too." I just can't wait for that line in our house!
Sophie has always been a dolly/animal girl. Many mornings or after her nap you will find her sitting up in her bed just playing with her dollies and stuffed animals. Now don't worry, she is only allowed one teddy and one dolly and her glow worm and even then they don't make it in all the time.
What has surprised me is that she already has favourites - Willow who is a seedling dolly she got for her birthday from her friend Eva, Corolle who was also a birthday present from Auntie Reynolds, and an Upsie Daisy doll from In the Night Garden that I got for her when she was about four months old. She and Daisy are the same size so it is funny to watch her drag it around the house, and they go everywhere together. In fact, we were in the store the other day going past an In the Night Garden display and she put out her hand and said DAISY.
Crazy thing is I didn't plan for this to happen. It just did. I have realized lately that play is so important in her development. It teaches her to use her imagination. I have also noticed that she is very interested in knowing how things work - the engineering side of her brain no doubt. It is truly amazing, how even these early days help them determine who they will be down the road. Now if you will excuse me I have a tea party to attend . . .
No, I didn't play with dollies until I met my friend Denise. Then I had to have Barbies, and Cabbage Patch Kids. Well whatever Denise got, I had to have too! I think my mom hated hearing ". . . but mom, Denise has one so I HAVE to have one too." I just can't wait for that line in our house!
Sophie has always been a dolly/animal girl. Many mornings or after her nap you will find her sitting up in her bed just playing with her dollies and stuffed animals. Now don't worry, she is only allowed one teddy and one dolly and her glow worm and even then they don't make it in all the time.
What has surprised me is that she already has favourites - Willow who is a seedling dolly she got for her birthday from her friend Eva, Corolle who was also a birthday present from Auntie Reynolds, and an Upsie Daisy doll from In the Night Garden that I got for her when she was about four months old. She and Daisy are the same size so it is funny to watch her drag it around the house, and they go everywhere together. In fact, we were in the store the other day going past an In the Night Garden display and she put out her hand and said DAISY.
Crazy thing is I didn't plan for this to happen. It just did. I have realized lately that play is so important in her development. It teaches her to use her imagination. I have also noticed that she is very interested in knowing how things work - the engineering side of her brain no doubt. It is truly amazing, how even these early days help them determine who they will be down the road. Now if you will excuse me I have a tea party to attend . . .
Friday, January 22, 2010
Forgive me father . . .
. . . for I have sinned. No wait I am not Catholic and therefore cannot hail mary my way out of this. I do have a confession though.
So in my Skinny Panties blog I said that I had had a crappy week with the exception of the Jann Arden Concert on Wednesday night (thanks Shannon!). My week has been an emotional roller coaster of sorts. You see, there was a chance I was preggers again, and as it has turned out that isn't the case. Monday night when I was sitting with our group to talk about the Liver Detox it was the absolute last place I wanted to be. Not because of you girls, but because of how my body was feeling and where I was emotionally.
You see I was having symptoms of being pregnant. Absolutely crazy off the wall dreams, tiredness that would make your eyes pop out, no energy even during the day after my workouts and anger, uncontrollable anger. I guess this happened in my pregnancy with Sophie. Etienne said one day I was a nice, happy wife and the next day I was a bitch. It lasted until the end of the first trimester and the old me returned. I kept asking myself - Was I ready for this? Were we ready for this? Once I realized that I wouldn't need to find those answers, I knew. Yes I was ready for this and it made me sad that it wasn't going to happen.
So all week I have been truly questioning why I was still doing this Detox. I haven't done green juice all week - just couldn't be bothered. In the afternoons I wasn't hungry either so I didn't really miss it until I had to do the Aloe Vera Juice shot each afternoon. GAG! Today's with juice was much better.
I had enough morning juice from when I juiced on Tuesday to get me to today. I am tired of chicken and turkey, and fish for meats (Sorry guys, I have had an aversion to lamb since my last pregnancy). I want bread, bread and more bread. I didn't even eat that much bread before we started but it is the one thing I have constantly craved since starting, that and red meat.
So I tested myself tonight, we went out for dinner to a local establishment. When looking at the menu for myself I realized I was scanning for those things that would fit in with the program. Not a lot of selection I must say. Yes the salad would have filled the void nicely but yet I didn't have it. I had fajitas. I ate one tortilla with chicken, rice, vegis, tomatoes and lettuce. I refused the sour cream and cheese, and then left the rest of the tortillas in the container. It was good but I didn't need or want another. Instead I finished the lettuce, tomatoes, chicken and vegis and had a bit more rice - I know carbs and protein. I left the restaurant feeling full and proud that I had stopped at just one tortilla.
On our drive home I realized that developing a healthier lifestyle is important to me. We only have a week and half to go on the Liver Detox before we can start slowly incorporating certain components back into our food choices. I do have to say that I will definitely look at my food choices much differently from here on in.
So in my Skinny Panties blog I said that I had had a crappy week with the exception of the Jann Arden Concert on Wednesday night (thanks Shannon!). My week has been an emotional roller coaster of sorts. You see, there was a chance I was preggers again, and as it has turned out that isn't the case. Monday night when I was sitting with our group to talk about the Liver Detox it was the absolute last place I wanted to be. Not because of you girls, but because of how my body was feeling and where I was emotionally.
You see I was having symptoms of being pregnant. Absolutely crazy off the wall dreams, tiredness that would make your eyes pop out, no energy even during the day after my workouts and anger, uncontrollable anger. I guess this happened in my pregnancy with Sophie. Etienne said one day I was a nice, happy wife and the next day I was a bitch. It lasted until the end of the first trimester and the old me returned. I kept asking myself - Was I ready for this? Were we ready for this? Once I realized that I wouldn't need to find those answers, I knew. Yes I was ready for this and it made me sad that it wasn't going to happen.
So all week I have been truly questioning why I was still doing this Detox. I haven't done green juice all week - just couldn't be bothered. In the afternoons I wasn't hungry either so I didn't really miss it until I had to do the Aloe Vera Juice shot each afternoon. GAG! Today's with juice was much better.
I had enough morning juice from when I juiced on Tuesday to get me to today. I am tired of chicken and turkey, and fish for meats (Sorry guys, I have had an aversion to lamb since my last pregnancy). I want bread, bread and more bread. I didn't even eat that much bread before we started but it is the one thing I have constantly craved since starting, that and red meat.
So I tested myself tonight, we went out for dinner to a local establishment. When looking at the menu for myself I realized I was scanning for those things that would fit in with the program. Not a lot of selection I must say. Yes the salad would have filled the void nicely but yet I didn't have it. I had fajitas. I ate one tortilla with chicken, rice, vegis, tomatoes and lettuce. I refused the sour cream and cheese, and then left the rest of the tortillas in the container. It was good but I didn't need or want another. Instead I finished the lettuce, tomatoes, chicken and vegis and had a bit more rice - I know carbs and protein. I left the restaurant feeling full and proud that I had stopped at just one tortilla.
On our drive home I realized that developing a healthier lifestyle is important to me. We only have a week and half to go on the Liver Detox before we can start slowly incorporating certain components back into our food choices. I do have to say that I will definitely look at my food choices much differently from here on in.
Skinny Panties
Okay, so I will say that even though I am still miffed with the Goodlife and the ($*#&$*# the pulled before Christmas with my old trainer, I am beginning to get used to my new one and well she isn't as bad as I thought. Mind you she just doesn't stop talking which is kind of annoying when you are doing plank (which frankly is hard enough on its own) and getting asked small talk questions? Hey trainer - I need to focus otherwise I will end up face down on the mat. Come on!!!
So it also appears that I have some damage in my left knee which I was told to go and get a diagnosis on. This kind of sucks because it is making it really hard for me to do a lot of the leg exercises I should be doing. It really hurts. I knew there was something going on with it about a year ago but it comes and goes. The last couple of weeks have really made it worse or more aggravated because I am really being pushed during my training sessions.
And I have to say it is working - when I weighed in today because my day is Friday, I noticed that I have now lost 9 pounds in this Detox/Better Lifestyle Journey! Yeah me. I also put on a pair of heels today that I bought back in November for a wedding. I love these shoes and when I put them on today just because I wanted to wear them around my house - they fit. No need to stretch them out, they just fit!
I also put on what I call my skinny panties - I know strange. I have a bunch of big panties (my "fat pants"), that I was wearing before I got pregnant with Sophie and then of course these were the only ones that fit during and after, until now. Who knew how good putting on my skinny panties would make me feel especially after the week I have had, which with the exception of the Jann Arden concert Wednesday night, I would gladly like to forget and move forward.
So it also appears that I have some damage in my left knee which I was told to go and get a diagnosis on. This kind of sucks because it is making it really hard for me to do a lot of the leg exercises I should be doing. It really hurts. I knew there was something going on with it about a year ago but it comes and goes. The last couple of weeks have really made it worse or more aggravated because I am really being pushed during my training sessions.
And I have to say it is working - when I weighed in today because my day is Friday, I noticed that I have now lost 9 pounds in this Detox/Better Lifestyle Journey! Yeah me. I also put on a pair of heels today that I bought back in November for a wedding. I love these shoes and when I put them on today just because I wanted to wear them around my house - they fit. No need to stretch them out, they just fit!
I also put on what I call my skinny panties - I know strange. I have a bunch of big panties (my "fat pants"), that I was wearing before I got pregnant with Sophie and then of course these were the only ones that fit during and after, until now. Who knew how good putting on my skinny panties would make me feel especially after the week I have had, which with the exception of the Jann Arden concert Wednesday night, I would gladly like to forget and move forward.
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