Moving on . . .

The Peanut (kind of funny considering how allergic she is to them) is down for her nap, I have just poured myself a peppermint tea and I think it is time for a little reflection.

As of yesterday, I have moved on from the detox and am now moving into the next phase. I know this is a couple of days early, but yesterday at the gym I once again became dizzy and nauseous about two thirds of the way through my training session. Frustrating because I am really back into what we are doing and I feel like my body is letting me down and I am letting down my trainer. Again my trainer asked what I had had for breakie and told her. It was her opinion that I needed either more protein or some complex carbohydrates to give me that extra fuel to get all the way through my workout. And honestly I was starving right around the time it hit, so yes, I bet I was just out of fuel.

So I decided to opt out a couple of days early from the detox so that I could make some changes to what I was eating and be ready to go for Monday at 9 a.m.! Today I had a combination of Flax Cereal and Oats, with a few raisins and some cinnamon, cloves and nutmeg for flavour. They were yummy and my system responded well to them. This was good fuel for our skating adventure this morning with Kelly and Connor. We had a great time, got some good exercise in, and came home with lots of energy.

This detox has been a real journey of exploration for me. I never thought I had issues around food, but have come to realize that that isn't necessarily the case. I love to eat there is no doubt, but I also don't like feeling deprived either. This is the biggest one. But what is deprivation? Dictionary.com lists the word deprive as to remove or withhold something from the enjoyment or possession of (a person or persons): to deprive a man of life; to deprive a baby of candy. I think it is funny that the second is the example they use. Baby's shouldn't have candy in the first place, so really, that is just good parenting. But I digress . . .

I think in the beginning I saw parts of this detox as being deprived of the things I love so much. But yet, these are the things that have really put a tax on my health, my energy, my system, my sanity. I can't say that I won't eat sugar ever again - I love cake - but I am going to try and continue to make better choices on the food front for me and my family. I have a child who really doesn't like sweets - I sometimes wish I was more like her.